Thursday, 28 August 2008
♥
God, if you had msn, it'll be so fun.
ADD ME PLEASE!
{/10:15 pm}
<3, me
♥
God Said... I Said...
_________________________________
God said: I miss talking with you.
I said: What? I just prayed on Sunday.
How often do you talk with Katie?
I dunno.
Think about it.
Well, OK. Let’s see . . . we usually hang together before school, then we have English and math together. And — oh yeah — we’ve got study hall together in the afternoon. And lunch, I forgot about lunch. We eat lunch together every day.
So how often do you talk with Katie?
I guess all the time. We call each other a few times during the week to check on homework stuff. And we instant-message a lot in the evenings when we’re both on the computer. I’d say we pretty much talk all the time. After all, she is my best friend!
How often do you talk with Me?
I don’t know.
Think about it.
Sigh. Well . . . on Sundays at church — and at youth group. You know.
I’d love to talk with you more.
But God, I already give You chitchat time.
I want more than chitchat. I’d like for you to tell Me everything.
Everything?
Why not? I already know what you’re thinking anyway.
Yeah. And that’s just it! If You know everything, what’s the big deal about me having to talk with You?
Having to talk? Hmmm. I was hoping it would be more of an enjoyment instead of an obligation.
Ah, You know what I mean.
You’re right, I do. And that’s exactly what hurts Me. Most of the time when you speak with Me, it’s because you feel you’re supposed to, or it’s because your back is against the wall and you need help — fast.
I didn’t know You felt that way.
My child, I paid the highest price I could pay for you. I long to be with you and to hear you voice your thoughts, your joys, your tears, your loneliness, your victories.
Well, OK. If it really means that much to You. But I still don’t get this prayer thing. If You already know what I’m going to say before I even say it, what’s the point in telling You?
It’s the process.
Huh?
Remember last week when Katie took first place in the track meet?
Sure! I remember. Boy, was she excited!
Yes. And you were, too.
Well, yeah. I am her best friend. You know.
But you actually heard about it before Katie told you.
Oh, yeah! Jason told me before I even saw Katie.
But when Katie rushed to you, waving her ribbon, you were just as happy and proud for her as if you were hearing the news for the first time.
Yeah.
That’s friendship. That’s relationship. That’s love. Would you have wanted her to keep the news from you because you already knew?
No way! I love it when Katie gets excited. Her face lights up with that crooked grin, and her eyes glow like sparklers.
I feel the same way.
Hmmm.
I not only love for you to tell Me everything — I can’t wait to hear it!
I think I’m starting to understand.
I’m not finished with Katie yet.
Oh?
Yeah. Let’s keep talking about your friendship for just a bit longer.
OK.
The more you two share (secrets, giggles, notes), and the more you two do (trips together, youth group parties, football games), the closer you become.
So it’s doing stuff that makes us such great friends, right?
Partly right. But I really want you to think about this, OK?
OK.
It’s also the p-r-o-c-e-s-s.
I’m thinking.
The time invested in sharing and doing.
Yeah. I get it. We’re sort of investing ourselves in each other’s lives.
Exactly. And your friendship is growing because of it.
Yeah! Cool.
Do you hear what I’m saying?
Keep talking. I’m listening, God. I really am. I want to get this.
Your relationship with Me is pretty static right now.
Static?
Yeah. Dull. Boring.
I didn’t think You noticed stuff like that.
I’m God, remember?
Oh, yeah.
But it doesn’t have to be static. Don’t forget. I died so we could have a relationship — an exciting, fun relationship, not a boring one.
Well, what can I do?
Spend more time with Me. Talk to Me. When you cry, let Me wipe your tears. When you ace a history exam, share your good news with Me. When Lisa snubs you in the hallway, tell Me how bad it hurts. I want our relationship to grow.
Wow. Lord, I’ve never even thought of all that. I mean, why would You be so interested in my everyday, ordinary life?
Because I love you. Oh, how I love you!
Jesus, I’m sorry. I’ve pretty much left You on the shelf. I mean, yeah, I go to church, and I even read my Bible at times, and people know I’m a Christian. But You want me to grow in You too, and I haven’t been — I’ve been static, just like You said. Will You forgive me?
I forgive you.
Jesus, I want to have a best-friend, Lord-of-Lords relationship with You. I want You to own me and consume me.
Yes! That’s what I want, too. And you know what?
What?
I love the way you’re praying right now.
Praying? I’m not praying. We’re just talking.
Yeah. And that’s exactly what prayer is.
I get it.
Open, honest, consistent communication.
I can’t wait till tomorrow morning.
Why’s that?
I’m going to get up early and pray.
You don’t have to wait till tomorrow morning. Talk to Me when you get up at 1:30 a.m. to go to the bathroom.
Really?
Sure! And at 3 a.m. when you’re tossing in bed and scrunching your pillow.
Hey! How’d You know I always? . . . Oh, yeah, You’re God.
Right.
Well, in that case, how about hanging out right now? I’ve got some stuff I need to talk with You about.
Great. This is the moment I’ve been waiting for.
{/3:02 pm}
<3, me
Wednesday, 27 August 2008
♥
i don't know why i'm updating.
so i won't.
ha.
bye!
{/1:11 pm}
<3, me
Sunday, 24 August 2008
♥
i ran 21km today.
with an embarassing timing.
and with an even more embarrassing number of girls running faster than me.
haiyo.
{/10:32 pm}
<3, me
Saturday, 23 August 2008
♥
there was only three people at cg today.
t.h.r.e.e.
and i need to start caring again. sigh.
joash wake up please.
{/11:52 pm}
<3, me
Thursday, 21 August 2008
♥
"I am prepared to meet my maker. Whether my maker is prepared for the great ordeal of meeting me is another matter."
This was quoted from Mr Winston Churchill who said it on the eve of his 75th birthday.
I found this very amusing. ahahaha. not very true, but somehow funny(:
reminds me of evan almighty i watched just now. not as offensive as i thought it would be. in fact, not offensive at all. ahahaha.
i liked the part where they showed that God is relational (: i mean, ok, morgan freeman doesn't exactly portray God really accurately, but God has a sense of humour too. and hey, yeah God is relational (: it's always so easy to think that God is so big and "high-up-there". but.. God wants to be close to us. just look at the adam and eve story in genesis. although God already knew they messed up, he still talked to them and asked them.
God's cool(:
{/10:40 pm}
<3, me
♥
They are all in thailand now.
s3, co, tham, jj, kc, yan zhi, vv, j moh, and the rest. i can't believe it. thailand really sounds fun, and well, it's not exactly a holiday, but the whole experience would have been good. i chose to stay back in s'pore cos it's an important season of their lives now, but now i kindda wonder whether me staying actually makes a difference or not. perhaps not. but anyway.
i'm stand-in oc/csm/pc/ps now. waaah lao=/ my phonebill for sms and calls are so gonna fly through the roof and to the moon lorh. the responsibility is so irritating. bleaah. everyone trying squeeze "welfare" out of me but not showing any signs of respecting my decisions when it comes to regimental stuff. i guess respect really has to be earnt (okay i knew this long ago, but army kindda teaches you otherwise. stupid army system.) and it's not automatic with your rank. especially amongst nsfs. actually kindda shows that i'm not really a natural leader (not that i didn't already know that either)
one good thing about these few weeks is that fall-outs will def be on time ;) yay. no more being late for prayer meetings. ahaha.
and oh if u have 5-10mins,
http://www.foundationsforfreedom.net/Topics/Devotions/Devotions020.html
it's really really good. it's about george muller on meditation(: READ IT.
now. click it!!
=)
{/8:44 pm}
<3, me
♥
I can't believe how much I think about You...
I haven't even met you!
{/9:22 am}
<3, me
Thursday, 14 August 2008
♥
vanessa is gonna be back next week!! YES :D
aha. feels like so long. although it's so -__- short. when chris and ian flies off it's gonna be really weird =/ stupid teo and chew, why their siaming power not as zai as mine.
AND EVEN BETTER, EMMA IS COMINNG BAACCKK!!! AHAHAHAHAH!!!!! YESSS YESS YESSS!!!! :D:D:D:D:D
I don't care what they say about me
It's alright, it's alright
I don't care they think about me
It's alright, they'll get it one day
I love you, I'll follow you
You are my, my life
I will read my bible and pray
I will follow you all day
-All Day by Hillsong
{/10:14 pm}
<3, me
♥
the last three days have been a holiday without staff tham(thumb) around man!!! reaching office at like.. 11:30am. AHAHAHAHA. you guys didn't see that!! ;)
and today....
i got silver for IPPT!!! WOOT!!:D
ahahaha. no RT for me nooobsss =P i still get my half day off for coming back on saturday mornings. la la la.
okok. on a more serious note, i need to get more focused on God.
dave was right, we can't just look at our friends around us and go "oh i'm already such a good christian. i pray every day and i read my bible. i don't smoke, drink, do drugs, sleep around, scold vulgarities, and all that stuff." we gotta look at GOD'S standard and see what he has truly called us to. not just beautiful on the outside, but on the inside as well.
"...having a form of godliness but denying its power." - 2 Timothy 3:4
God i don't want to be like that.
"Teach me to do your will, for you are my God." - Psalms 143:10
{/8:51 pm}
<3, me
Tuesday, 12 August 2008
♥
From a Recruit to a full fledged Private:
From a coporal to a 3rd Sergeant (Fitness Specialist!):
ohmigosh.
looking at pop photos is making me very nostalgic =/
{/11:17 pm}
<3, me
♥
i wanna get "The I Heart Revolution" and "This Is Our God" albums(: they're nice!!
i'm really finding army meaningless. i miss school a lot =/]
God, please show me WHY.
{/9:07 pm}
<3, me
Sunday, 10 August 2008
♥
i just got a new water bottle from my battalion.
it's one of those nice aluminium ones.. all black...
and in big bold yellow capital letters writes..
"BUAYA"
i'm so gonna bring it to yf this sat. ahahaha. comedy hour
{/10:45 pm}
<3, me
♥
and oh ya. 6 more months to ORD(: YAAAYYY.
{/5:22 pm}
<3, me
♥
i've spent the last 7 days thinking like a 14 year old again.
(uhhh.. i mean myself as a 14 year old, not all u 14 year olds out there)
joash u gotta learn to grow up.
aii... a lot of thoughts going through my head this weekend.
i'm considering whether or not to post what ian chris yimin bryan and i talked abt last night.. i don't think i will though. (and all my faithful blog readers must be wondering what in the world i'm talking about. ahahaha.)
lalala. yes, u are wasting your time reading my blog. shoo shoo. ahaha.
Wholly Surrendered. God, teach me what that means. Please help me die to myself, because only you, and you alone, are good. Amen.
{/5:14 pm}
<3, me
Monday, 4 August 2008
♥
the bass guitar is one of the coolest instruments in a band(:
BOOM!!!
yeah. ahahahaha.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CELESTE MARIA AND BENEDICT!!!! =)
vanessa flies off to london tonight!! lucky reachcambridge girl. enjoying herself while i'm stuck in evil army.
vanessa, emma, and grace teo are coming back by the end of this month though. YAY:D can't wait for emma to come baaackk!!! ahahah.
and saviour king is a nice album (:
{/7:43 pm}
<3, me
Sunday, 3 August 2008
♥
i really need to hang out with older ppl =/
feels so weird sometimes. cos young ppl don't really wanna be ur friend, they just wanna learn from u. which is cool i guess(:
and gosh it's late. time to go sleep. BYE:D
oh yes!! lunch with shuxian was fun. ahaha. (it's okay if u dunno what i'm talking about, only my close friends understand ^^ )
{/12:10 am}
<3, me
