Saturday, 11 October 2008
♥ emo night (birthday, random thoughts, lyrics)
now i appreciate the difference between celebrating birthdays with christians and army guys
morning:
happy birthdaY!!
*restrained*
*receive counterpain application all over body*
*feel the burn*
evening:
happy birthday!!!
*restrained*
enter: bbq sauce, eggs, shaver
what a wonderful friday. kindda makes me hate the whole birthday thing now=/
had a bbq with BN HQ at my place just now, just as a cohesion thing. then they presented me a CAKE. (yay?) then then...
they had this look on their faces.
SO, i naturally retreated away from the cake.
smart right?
not.
enter thick rope and my rock climbing instructor brother. my wrists and ankles are quickly tied up together in some insane knot.
enter vivegan and cold egg. my head is sat on and i feel a cold sticky sensation all around my head.
enter buzzing sound. shaver. deforestation occurs.
(one more thing happened which will remain unspoken)
that forest was a nature reserve okay, it's special. now it's like half deforested and now... sigggh. (it's okay if you don't understand. if u think this sounds weird, you're thinking waaay too far)
okay. that's just for me to read in the future and to.. forever remember vivegan.
ANYWAY.
random thought:
what i really want, is someone older to take me under his/her wing, and mentor me. to ask me how i'm doing spiritually on a regular basis, who actually cares enough to not assume i'm always "doing fine". someone who will listen to my struggles and my insecurities and bring godly perspective to it. someone who will be my rolemodel in life to uphold God's holy standards in a world that is fallen and so often filled with compromise. someone who will smack my head and remind me that i'm human and i have issues that i need to deal with. someone who will come up to me and rebuke me when i need it. someone who will be there for me, and i know i can go to him/her no matter what. no matter what.
random quotes that's paraphrased by me:
"always bring a friend with you. because in leadership, it gets very lonely at the top."
"i want you to know that as you get older, it's going to become harder and harder to discern the motives of the people who want to be your friend. i also want you to know, that no matter who you are in the future, i will always be a true friend to you."
Moment made for worshipping- Steven Curtis Chapman
Six thiry monday morning
I'm here hiding in my bed
A song plays on my alarm clock
As I cover up my head
And somewhere in the distance
I remember yesterday
Singing "Hallelujah"
Full of wonder, awe and grace
But now I'm just wondering...
Why I don't feel anything...
At all.
CHORUS:
This is a moment made for worshipping
Cause this is a moment I'm alive
And this is a moment I was made to sing
A song of living sacrifice
For every moment that I live and breathe
This is a moment made for worshipping
When I'm praying with my children
As they're running off to school
When I kiss my wife good morning
Just to say I still love you
When I'm feeling loved and happy
When I'm feeling all alone
When I'm failing to remember
All the love that I've been shown
Every single beat of my heart
Is another new place to start
To know..
CHORUS:
This is a moment made for worshipping
Cause this is a moment I'm alive
And this is a moment I was made to sing
A song of living sacrifice
For every moment that I live and breathe
This is a moment made for worshipping
Another random thought:
self-pity = bad
{/12:44 am}
<3, me
