. Worth More Than A Sparrow .

Sunday, 30 November 2008

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man. this is FUNNY.

my ding-a-ling(:

chuck berry is dang funny. ahahahaha.

{/10:12 pm}

<3, me

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as each day passes, i realise that you are nowhere to be seen... yet.

{/12:27 am}

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Saturday, 29 November 2008

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Disclaimer: as it is 2am, joash holds no responsibility for being moody-ier then usual as he blames the late night and hence lack of energy. Read at your own peril.

For the lack of three bullets, joash has no $200.

today was my last day with my wife (or rather, my one night stand. had to draw a spare arm for atp). well, last day using her for something else besides display purposes anyway... i didn't even manage to get the lousy marksman. bleaah.

no firing the m16 for me until.. who knows when. probably never. it was fun while lasted. (:

BANG!!!

target down. oh yeah ^^

i'm so taking a balloon to tm/tf one day, bursting it then yelling "CONTACTED!!!!" very loudly. i wanna see all the army/ex-army boys reactions. should be priceless. ahahaha.

and oh yes. i found the farewell note from cindy in the nice brown frame. (: man, the days when i was 17 years old. first three months was fun.

WHERE HAVE THOSE DAYS GONE?

{/1:53 am}

<3, me

Tuesday, 25 November 2008

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Find Me Here
Speak To Me
I want to feel you
I need to hear you
You are the light
That's leading me
To the place where I find peace again.

You are the strength, that keeps me walking.
You are the hope, that keeps me trusting.
You are the light to my soul.
You are my purpose...you're everything.

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

You calm the storms, and you give me rest.
You hold me in your hands, you won't let me fall.
You steal my heart, and you take my breath away.
Would you take me in? Take me deeper now?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
And how can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Cause you're all I want, You're all I need
You're everything,everything
You're all I want your all I need
You're everything, everything.
You're all I want you're all I need.
You're everything, everything
You're all I want you're all I need, you're everything, everything.

And How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?
How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

How can I stand here with you and not be moved by you?
Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

Would you tell me how could it be any better than this?

{/12:03 am}

<3, me

Monday, 24 November 2008

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I'm packing my room now this is gonna be short.

kindda throwing away lots of old stuff when i found my old sec 2 cd.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?

ahaha. it has all our imovie projects and visual basic programmes on it. i can't believe how crappy it was.

and oh, proof of how bad i was in sec 3:

"Open CD"

"Visual Basic Projects"

"Chong Kwong Fah"

"Readme.txt"

??!?!?!?!??!?!

"Visual Basic project and tutorials were not submitted.
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Created by: Miss Yee
Position: IT teacher of Visual Basic
Date: 03/06/2002"

OH MAN.

ahaha. but i did remember doing my visual basic project. i was trying to create some tribe programme thingie thign and i had created a welcome screen and password system and all that. tribes are just the old names for really big cgs. ehhh... yeah(:

and i created fake fatal error blue screens too!!!

i wonder why i never submited those.

{/3:32 pm}

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Sunday, 23 November 2008

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So the cow said to the pony: "My, you lucky thing!"

To which the pony replied: "What are you talking about?"

"You are getting featured on Joash's blog! Isn't that something?!" The cow said.

AHAHAHAHAHA. yes, everyone loves to be on my blog(:

i can't believe how typing all that made me happier. lol.

okaay. CHURCH. i learnt a cool rope trick today :D ahaha.

next!

ehh.. i don't feel like blogging anymore.

but the fillipino service today was cool (: their worship service is amazing and the kids are great! yup:D 09 is gonna be fun!

{/9:01 pm}

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Why?

Now that was an irritatingly vague post now, wasn't it? (:

{/12:00 am}

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Saturday, 22 November 2008

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cos you bring out the best in me..

ahahaha. i can't wait to meet the One(:

ANYWAY!

Prayer meeting today was completely awesome. God was really there and real, and i just know He wants to do something awesome if we but let him. (: yup, awesome time of prayer.

if you don't go for prayer on fridays, YOU MUST GO!!:D

{/12:02 am}

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Thursday, 20 November 2008

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edwin let me hear this song today.

i was.. quite wow-ed and moved by the lyrics. check it out!

This is an emergency!

{/1:18 am}

<3, me

Tuesday, 18 November 2008

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Blue (Da ba dee) - Eiffel 65

blue:D

i'm bored in army.

{/4:13 pm}

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Sunday, 16 November 2008

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UPDATE(:

okay it's late and i'm brain draiinneed.

but today was a good day!!

starting with waking up at 8:17, when my PRO meeting starts at 8:30. BEST. ahaha. but managed to reach at 8:19, and still finish on time. very happy(: i'm very happy to have such a great team of PROs. ahaha.

i must say one thing.

auntie tong hua is the bomb! ahaha. really really respect her man. just the patience that she has for all the kids in KJs, it's absolutely amazing. i was this close to scolding the p6 guys. they were so.. whoa. cannot describe. really really terrible.

so when isobel later came to pass me the registration forms, i asked auntie tong hua to talk to the p6ers. and then i gave them a piece of my mind:P k lah, if u know me, u know i'm not THAT scary. (right?) ya, surprisingly they were really really serious and listened to what i had to say. so i conclude that actually deep inside they are really really good guys(: just that they need to learn to control their talking a bit (or a lot). but hey, who didn't? (: i think we're in for a very very good year next year :D

after that, kfc with worship leaders. then cabbed down to lhk!

fillipino service was really really really awesome(: the kids are great, and the sunday school teacher was absolutely fantastic. really really blessed by it :D i might want to share that lesson with my cg before i leave, but i'll seee how lah. so just in case i do, i won't spoil it by saying what it was here;)

DOTA WITH TF CG. ahaha. the CS was great, so was the dota. okay the last getting thrashed round wasn't that shiok, but ah well(:

chris is at my place now staying over. playing with the chords for as the deer was really fun and mentally tiring. ahaha. came up with so many variations with the 2 5 1 progression as well as chord subsitutions(: fun fun.

good day:D

{/11:42 pm}

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People are often unreasonable, irrational, and self-centered. Forgive them anyway.

If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives. Be kind anyway.

If you are successful, you will win some unfaithful friends and some genuine enemies. Succeed anyway.

If you are honest and sincere people may deceive you. Be honest and sincere anyway.

What you spend years creating, others could destroy overnight. Create anyway.

If you find serenity and happiness, some may be jealous. Be happy anyway.

The good you do today, will often be forgotten. Do good anyway.

Give the best you have, and it will never be enough. Give your best anyway.

In the final analysis, it is between you and God. It was never between you and them anyway.

{/1:15 am}

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[WARNING!! LONG POST! READ AT YOUR OWN RISH!!]

SMU Matriculation(:

Okay, i am officially a SMU student.

Matriculation today was pretty cool. except my feelings was cheated because the dude that called me to confirm attendance told me it ended at 3pm. imagine my shock when i saw on the programme schedule that it was 2-5pm. my heart STOPPED.

luckily managed to rush out and reach cg on time(: [not that they appreciated, but...]

smu seems like a nice place! prof pang seems nice enough, and they fed me enough pro-smu propaganda to make me look forward to the start of school. my only worry now is that i'll get too involved in all the smu stuff, esp if i land the scholarship (which i kindda hope i get, and kindda hope i don't get). then as a result, drop a lot of church stuff.

cannot cannot cannot.

matriculation was almost exactly the same as the last time i went to smu for the AP. they still have my j1 photo!!! i told them to delete it and take a new one :D ahaha. i was pretty happy that i rushed out of the auditorium to finish all the stations quickly because the queue after i came out was WHOA. def wouldn't have made it on time for tm412 if i waited first.

the buffet spread was kindda nice, managed to grab a plate while waiting for a chance to talk to the dean. he seems like a cool dude!! he asked me:

"so what do you wanna do in business?"

"uhh.. i'm thinking more of the management side. i'm thinking of maybe finance because i'm kindda good at math. don't really like it, but i heard finance is suitable for those good in math. i'm definitely leaning towards more of the management side. And definitely not towards the operations side."

"oh that's interesting. what's your name?"

"uhm. Joash. J-0-a-s-h"

"what school were you from?"

"Innova Jc..."

"alright! great! looking forward to seeing you at the scholarship talk next saturday!"

"oh ok. thanks prof!"

ahaha. nice guy(:
and i realise i have the ability to talk when the need comes. u know, smoke your way through things. ahaha. useful skill. don't know where i learnt that from but..

okok. tm412!

flywheel was really really good. i only caught the last 30mins i think? i wish i watched the whole thing. but i was really really struck by the fact that the main character really really obeyed. i mean, come ON. it's tough! i'm pretty sure i wouldn't have made the choices he did. which i guess that's why i'm not gonna see God move in such a cool way.

i'm not going to walk on water unless i get out of the boat right?

i think it's scary to walk in complete obedience to God, living by HIS standards even if it means making the whole world upset. i don't know when it happened, but there was a point in my life when i decided that "keeping the peace" and not offending people was more important that obeying God in the "minor things". a little compromise here and there...

"it's just a small lie.."

"ah.. everyone is doing it. i'm not as bad as compared to them.."

etc etc.

what happened to God's holy standards?

Joash joash, wake up!

i guess God will only show Hiself in such a cool way when we really live on the edge with him, rather than staying in our own comfort zone. yeah..

sorry if my terminology is all weird. it's all from the book i'm reading now. ha. check it out if you can, it's called "If you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat" by John Ortlurd or something like that. you can borrow from me if you want to. but only after i'm done with it. ahaha.

cg.. cg was fun(: love joanne to bits. ahaha. such an awesome cgl :D i wish i could express properly what a wonderful cgl i think she is. ahaha. i'm very very blessed(: was really tired at cg though. if josia didn't lead such a great discussion, probably would have knocked out at the table. i think i got very cool cg members(:

i'm learning to apply something from bible study today. it's not good to bottle up everything. sometimes it's good to express yourself so your friends know how you really feel and then can respond appropriately(: be it in rebuke, encouragement, dot dot dot. yeah, so i'm gonna start saying stuff that i know can be pretty immature and selfish, but at least i express it :P then maye i can read back on my blog and knock my head a bit. yups(:

ooohhhh... long long post todaY! i better add a warning at the start!

{/12:11 am}

<3, me

Thursday, 13 November 2008

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i realise if i auto-play all the songs i like, you'll get a random song i like when u're on my blog(:

yay!

anw, i find myself very depressed, angry, and sian over the last few days.

i don't know why.

actually, i do. it's the lack of spending time with God and finding joy in Him! which i've been remedying i guess. God's been awesome, amazingly real, and speaking into my life. I just don't know what's wrong with me...

I'll post the cool prayer article later(: [bella, u've been waiting for it right. ahah]

okay i'll post everything now though i'm kindda tired. just for remembering sake(:

i met up with allen and my other jc friends on sunday to play 5 hours of dota. aside from the fact that i lost 6-0, it was a fun time :D and cheap too. ahahaha. but i just really enjoyed catching up on all the old times (dang now i feel really old) and all the crazy stuff allen did to spice up jc life(: i mean, i've always felt regret and envy from time to time when i hear about how interesting and cool people's lives are (grace loke's name comes to my head for some reason. yeah, she's one of those.) and i always felt that my own life was boring.

but... i once knew a crazy guy called allen huang. who..

-skipped school and get suspended IN SCHOOL to study outside the general office.
-and topped the school for that midyear's exam papers.
-who spent $10,000 within three months, mostly on taxis and MCs.
-who forged countless MCs.
-who played overnight dota and WOW like a mad man.
-who got us all to go play dota in the middle of our prelims and A levels. (thanks man. lol)
-who kept wishing teachers happy birthday (practically shouting)
-and inspired our class to sing random happy birthday songs to different teachers IN LECTURES (absolutely priceless.)

and lots of other random things.

S13, i love the rest of you too(:

okay, not so depressed anymore.

NEXT!

Regrets

eh..

SKIP!

Humbling Sessions

God reminds me that I'm worthless scum (not his words, mine.) Of course i'm still a precious, very loved child of God(: but.. i can't do much by myself (or rather, anything). any fruit that i might have thought i had, is actually only by the grace and power of God.

which i thank Him for(:

both reminder and his grace & power :D

Awesome Story about Prayer

Check out the tm forum here:D

I'll post in on the chat! section.

okay update over!

and oh yes, the drummer on thousand miles is unbelievable. i like:D

{/11:29 pm}

<3, me

Tuesday, 11 November 2008

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i got a lot to post about jc, regrets, humbling sessions from daddy, and awesome stories about prayer..

i'll come post it later if i don't feel tired(:

{/11:46 pm}

<3, me

Thursday, 6 November 2008

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Dear Joash,

stop getting angry and frustrated over minor things.

No, don't blame hormonal imbalances.

Stop.

-Love,
Joash(:

{/12:22 am}

<3, me

Tuesday, 4 November 2008

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"Attention, Soldiers!

As some of you may have noticed, during our maintenance on 11/2, we conducted a mass ban of accounts that have been shown to have engaged in hacking and hack usage activity. Tens of thousands of accounts were identified and dealt with accordingly. As mentioned in a previous post, we have taken great pains to ensure that we are absolutely positive of abusive activity on an account before taking action, hence the delay in large-scale punishments against abusers. " - NxDelta

Wow, Nexon banned me from CA. That is.. uhm.. quite amazing. I don't even have an impressive kdr!

and it shocks, horrifies, and even terrifies me to know how much this upsets me. I mean, I just got banned from a stupid game. How mad can a guy get =/

(actually a lot of people are mad enough to write in letters to Nexon's affiliate companies as well as file lawsuits, but anyway)

scary.

{/9:02 pm}

<3, me

Sunday, 2 November 2008

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u gotta love server down times and reading forums.

CA has been down for the last 7 hours or so, 3 hours LATE from the projected server "up" time. so everyone (and i mean everyone) is on the forums posting all the "OH MY GOOODNESS WHY AREN'T THE SERVERS UP YET I'M GOING TO DIE COS I HAVE BEEN WATIING FOR THE LAST XXXX HOURS FOR THE GAME TO COME UP" comments.

it's hilarious to read. ahahaha.

forum reading is fun(:

{/11:33 pm}

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NEW SOONGG!

{/8:27 pm}

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doubts.

fears.

hence,

faith.

{/8:14 pm}

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