[WARNING!! LONG POST! READ AT YOUR OWN RISH!!]

SMU Matriculation(:

Okay, i am officially a SMU student.

Matriculation today was pretty cool. except my feelings was cheated because the dude that called me to confirm attendance told me it ended at 3pm. imagine my shock when i saw on the programme schedule that it was 2-5pm. my heart STOPPED.

luckily managed to rush out and reach cg on time(: [not that they appreciated, but...]

smu seems like a nice place! prof pang seems nice enough, and they fed me enough pro-smu propaganda to make me look forward to the start of school. my only worry now is that i'll get too involved in all the smu stuff, esp if i land the scholarship (which i kindda hope i get, and kindda hope i don't get). then as a result, drop a lot of church stuff.

cannot cannot cannot.

matriculation was almost exactly the same as the last time i went to smu for the AP. they still have my j1 photo!!! i told them to delete it and take a new one :D ahaha. i was pretty happy that i rushed out of the auditorium to finish all the stations quickly because the queue after i came out was WHOA. def wouldn't have made it on time for tm412 if i waited first.

the buffet spread was kindda nice, managed to grab a plate while waiting for a chance to talk to the dean. he seems like a cool dude!! he asked me:

"so what do you wanna do in business?"

"uhh.. i'm thinking more of the management side. i'm thinking of maybe finance because i'm kindda good at math. don't really like it, but i heard finance is suitable for those good in math. i'm definitely leaning towards more of the management side. And definitely not towards the operations side."

"oh that's interesting. what's your name?"

"uhm. Joash. J-0-a-s-h"

"what school were you from?"

"Innova Jc..."

"alright! great! looking forward to seeing you at the scholarship talk next saturday!"

"oh ok. thanks prof!"

ahaha. nice guy(:
and i realise i have the ability to talk when the need comes. u know, smoke your way through things. ahaha. useful skill. don't know where i learnt that from but..

okok. tm412!

flywheel was really really good. i only caught the last 30mins i think? i wish i watched the whole thing. but i was really really struck by the fact that the main character really really obeyed. i mean, come ON. it's tough! i'm pretty sure i wouldn't have made the choices he did. which i guess that's why i'm not gonna see God move in such a cool way.

i'm not going to walk on water unless i get out of the boat right?

i think it's scary to walk in complete obedience to God, living by HIS standards even if it means making the whole world upset. i don't know when it happened, but there was a point in my life when i decided that "keeping the peace" and not offending people was more important that obeying God in the "minor things". a little compromise here and there...

"it's just a small lie.."

"ah.. everyone is doing it. i'm not as bad as compared to them.."

etc etc.

what happened to God's holy standards?

Joash joash, wake up!

i guess God will only show Hiself in such a cool way when we really live on the edge with him, rather than staying in our own comfort zone. yeah..

sorry if my terminology is all weird. it's all from the book i'm reading now. ha. check it out if you can, it's called "If you want to walk on water, you've got to get out of the boat" by John Ortlurd or something like that. you can borrow from me if you want to. but only after i'm done with it. ahaha.

cg.. cg was fun(: love joanne to bits. ahaha. such an awesome cgl :D i wish i could express properly what a wonderful cgl i think she is. ahaha. i'm very very blessed(: was really tired at cg though. if josia didn't lead such a great discussion, probably would have knocked out at the table. i think i got very cool cg members(:

i'm learning to apply something from bible study today. it's not good to bottle up everything. sometimes it's good to express yourself so your friends know how you really feel and then can respond appropriately(: be it in rebuke, encouragement, dot dot dot. yeah, so i'm gonna start saying stuff that i know can be pretty immature and selfish, but at least i express it :P then maye i can read back on my blog and knock my head a bit. yups(:

ooohhhh... long long post todaY! i better add a warning at the start!