♥ Joash. aka.. ash:D
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A Verse Per Day
Who is a God like you, who pardons sin and forgives the transgression of the remnant of his inheritance? You do not stay angry forever but delight to show mercy.
i'm still reliving my sec sch anime music days. ahahaha. one of my favourite songs.. i just saw the translation.
KING OF EMO I TELL YOU. check it out:
""I Should Have Known"
The laughing voices of lovers passing by in front of me It makes me get all choked up Even though the rain has stopped On this weekend afternoon Oh I'm walking the streets all alone Even though I want to be with you
I should have known this If I fell in love with you that much So I would hurt just as much And even though I know my heart feels to resist Oh I keep my thoughts only of you Even when I can't really see you
And even though I know I shouldn't think about you How I wish we could be together And now the voice of my heart Which I’ve tried long to suppress Seems to overflow deeply and endlessly So much so that it hurts
I should have known this That I just can't hide my love for you And I just can’t stand myself on losing you But now I know It seems to be a good precious thought Oh I believed in the truth only And I know that my heart continues to love you"
hahaha. besssst. here's the song if u guys are interested(:
you gotta love the lyrics. hahaha. now i know when my emo streak in my sec sch days came from.
{/12:40 am}
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Tuesday, 24 February 2009
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The Catholic High School Gentleman is: A Bilingual Scholar of High Integrety and Robush Character who is passionate about Life, Learning, and Service to Others.
I can't BELIEVE I STILL REMEMBER THIS RUBBISH.
AND OH MY GOSH I GOT IT RIGHT.
see!! from CHS website: The Catholic High student is a gentleman and bilingual scholar of high integrity and robust character, who is passionate about life, learning and service to others.
okay, almost right. but whatever!! ahaha. as i was cycling home from bishan swimming complex, i saw our very own catholic high school bus once again. juliano's and ian ketsu's face is still there. i dunno why, but it makes me want to break out into peals of laughter.
i mean, okok. You look at that bus, and all our photos and go... "wow. catholic school gentleman. they look so prim and proper, so intelligent, and so sharp."
but watching us all grow up.. i kind of realised that we never really fulfilled the "image" of the catholic high school gentleman. and now, 5 years later, you would kind of realise that that, along with things like reputation and imagine, is ultimately justpaper-thin. you may trick some people, but you certainly aren't fooling yourself or God.
which makes me think about something else. sometimes as leaders, mentors, or even older people in general, we tend to put younger people into moulds and expect them to grow up in a certain way. we think "THIS is the best way for them to turn out." but really, at the end of the day they will look NOTHING like what we imagined.
still, we turned out fine. maybe not exactly according to our leaders or our parents' expectations, but still fine. as they will also(: as long as we do our best to grow their hearts to love jesus, i know that He will take care of the rest!
{/9:31 pm}
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And in this crazy life..
and through these crazy times..
It's you, it's you, You make me sing..
You're every line,
you're every word,
you're everything.
{/8:07 am}
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Sunday, 22 February 2009
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new haircut today!! i feel like an ah beng cos i've decided to try to keep the back long(:
anyway, crash conference was really. so many issues i've been struggling with was answered at CRASH, and now i feel ready to face the world once again (: on top of that, i've learnt many cool things!!
ask me and i'll share with u some of it(:
i met lots of cool people from the other churches too! i met rachel and faith from paradise of God. i met issac, the COOLEST drummer ever. hahaha. he whacks so hard that his sticks flower FROM THE MIDDLE of sticks. along with the other drummers, they break drum skins and cymbals. they roxxors. ahahaha. he said "sometimes when i feel like there's a bad spirit, i hit very hard. it's like spiritual warfare!!!" i agree :D emmanual AOG is a cool church (: i like them a lot.
i think i'm a jumper at heart. but i'v also learnt to adapt to the surroundings. u probably won't catch me jumping in bartley anymore. i'll just do my little bounce(:
anyway, work for the last two weeks has been great. simple, straightforward work that i don't really have to stress about. my mind actually has some time to chill and relax and unwind all that rubbish that's been accumalating like MAD over the last two weeks.
ok, i'm gonna sort of unload, so IF YOU DON'T WANNA READ PLEASE SKIP THE NEXT TWO PARAGRAPHS.
i was wondering the other night. what if, what if i just went on a 2 week "u know what. i'm not going to care anymore, all of you can go die for all i care. i'm sick and tired of all this" binge. i think, no one is really going to know the difference. and no one is going to care. so WHY THE HECK AM I WORRYING MYSELF SICK OVER SO MANY DIFFENT PEOPLE WHO DON'T EVEN CARE FOR THEMSELVES. why?
shaun said i should stop thinking so much. thinking should be left to the hard people. lol.
but aiyah, i know why. it's like God was smacking all the reasons into my head as i typed that out. God rocks lah. hahaha.
God's good you know (: really really good. i don't know how to put it in a non-cliche way. but He's been really faithful. you guys know hosea's wife? i am hosea's wife. yet he loves me. and he never changes. no matter what. it's incredible!
"give your best years to jesus!"
amen, amen, and amen.
{/9:57 pm}
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Tuesday, 17 February 2009
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reliving good old favs from sec sch days(:
ANIME SOUNDTRACKS. these are the love. :D
my fav upbeat and emo songs from those days(: though we didn't call it emo. we called it.. nice. HAHA. :D ANYHOW CLICK ONE FOR A NIE SONG!!!!
Lord, I lift my friend to You, I've done all that I know to do I lift my friend to You Complicated circumstances have clouded his view Lord, I lift my friend up to You
I fear that I won't have the words that he needs to hear I pray for Your wisdom, oh God, and a heart that's sincere Lord, I lift my friend up to You
Lord, I lift my friend to You My best friend in the world, I know he means much more to You I want so much to help him, but this is something he has to do And Lord, I lift my friend up to You
'cause there's a way that seems so right to him But You know where that leads He's becoming a puppet of the world, too blind to see the strings Lord, I lift my friend up to You My friend up to You
Lord, I lift my friend to You, I've done all that I know to do I lift my friend to You
{/10:54 pm}
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Monday, 9 February 2009
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looks like I ORD-ed after all(: i promise, today was my worst day is a loong time. but i'm not gonna sulk, because i've ORD-ed(:
i never expected my ord to be so sucky though.
OKAY, i promised not to sulk.
anyway!
When i saw that little pink card known as my IC, i just held it next to my heart and felt as if i slowly getting released, like the chains tying me down were being broken bit by bit, and that i'm FINALLY A FREE MAN!!!
at long last(:
when i was emptying my cupboard into my field pack, i felt a glimmer of the same emotions of when i left tekong. but as i stopped to ponder over that emotion, i realised it was different. it wasn't so much being sad to move on than actually finally being able to sever my ties with this organisation and make way for another poor soul to come in and suffer for 1 year 3 months in this sorry battalion.
don't get me wrong, i'm really glad for all the experiences i've had. all the friends i've made, all the lessons i've learnt, all the stupid mistakes i made that (hopefully) is going to make me a better at the end of the day. but i have no love for this organisation. it's.. messed up. the system is good, but the people mess it up. that's why it's painful for so many people. still, end of the day, i'm done.
i'm free.
{/8:28 pm}
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sigh. i wanna cry/swear/punch a wall.
my ps is pmsing and he's not gonna sign my clearance form.. that means no pink ic and no ORD.
what. the. heck.
{/12:39 pm}
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Sunday, 8 February 2009
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chris said i'm discouraged.
i think he's right.
{/11:30 pm}
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C'epochal_epiphany'T says: hey bro! joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: hey=) C'epochal_epiphany'T says: hey congrats man! C'epochal_epiphany'T says: at long last C'epochal_epiphany'T says: anw.. just added u on fb joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: hahaha joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: yeaah joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: at long last. joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: dang. joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: ok now my emotions are stirring joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: lol C'epochal_epiphany'T says: haha C'epochal_epiphany'T says: how's it feel? joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: u mean before u said hi or aftrer joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: haha C'epochal_epiphany'T says: both? joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: haha joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: before joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: nothing much joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: after joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: it feels like a big chapter of my life is coming to a close C'epochal_epiphany'T says: yeah haha C'epochal_epiphany'T says: thinking of the night before pop when we talked.. joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: hahaha! joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: i don't remember that night joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: but i do remember the SIT test night when we were in the field looking at fireflies C'epochal_epiphany'T says: ah yes! joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: hahah joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: aDANG IT CHARLES joash; jesus lives(: The process of RECORD is going to be completed in ONE days time (: [REC to ORD] says: u're gonna make me cry C'epochal_epiphany'T says: ahhhh...
Charlies, along with chris and weslie were my fav bmt friends. i remember that night at SIT test when we all lied down on the lush field looking up into the endless skies with countless stars. there were fireflies around, and we were just talking about our most tender moments.. dang :/ i remember on our last day on tekong.. weslie was opening crying. chris had red eyes and i think charles was tear-ing too.
at long last... at long last.
{/10:52 pm}
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Wednesday, 4 February 2009
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For the 26.2 mile Marathoner:
"We're going to run these first 10 miles with our heads, the second 10 miles with our legs, and the last six miles with our hearts. "
{/3:52 pm}
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Tuesday, 3 February 2009
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i have officially met the world's most despo/cheeko guy in the world.
over the sunday to tuesday, he couldn't stop asking me to join to go LSB (lup sup bar), stop asking girls to go out with him, or stop talking about getting laid.
like what is the world coming to -_-
anyway, ORD is in 6 days and counting. was talking to daryl on the way back from sungei gedong today, and reflecting back on my army life. i used to tell people, when you're leaving somewhere and feeling terribly nostalgic, just thank God that it happened, and look forward to the future.
sadly, i don't know if i can thank God that army happened.
:/
ok lah, i've definitely learnt a lot in army. over the last six months especially, i think i've taken away a lot of things that will apply to me in the working world.
ANYWAY, i started asking myself funny questions, like, what will the people of 35 SCE remember me for? will they even remember me? did i do anything of significance? (spiritual and otherwise) strange thoughts :/
but okay lah, i'm definitely happy to be ORD-ing!! i've met lots of great of people who I'll probably never forget, people like vivegan, you jwo, alvin, nelvin, tham, etc etc. awesome memories together man (: maybe we didn't go thailand together, or "tah" all the typical kind of "shit" that most other NSFs go through, but we have fought many battles in S3 department, battles that not many other people relate to. battles will continue to rage on years after we have ORD-ed because it's a warfront where the fighting never stops. ahaha.
army.. made me a different man. a better man? i don't know. I'll know 6 months from now(:
and i'm soooo in love with "in the begining". ahaha.
and oh oh oh!!! i've been practicing poly-rhythms (: i've been able to play two 5/4 beats already.. ahaha. so FUN. i'm gonna try some 3/8 and 5/8 poly rhythms. DANG DANG FUN!!!:D:D:D
