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Monday, 9 March 2009

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yay nice new blog song (: my favourite piano song evaaaarr. always make me smile the moment i hear this song. TURN UP YOUR VOLUME IF YOU CAN'T HEAR IT. i got lots more nice piano songs from anime, i'll change when i feel there's a need to! (:

anyway, i realise i haven't been posting much about my life. not that anyone's terribly interested, but i guess it's good for memory's sake!

just came from malaysia yesterday. had a good holiday with ian, chris, and our families! not the BEST holiday that i've had, but hey, it was alright! managed to catch watchmen, which isn't too bad a movie!! a litttlee complex, but still not too bad (: for $4.50, i'm not complaining. hahaha.

realised a lot of things on this trip. for one, i realise that there are times when i seriously hate my two best friends. those numbskulls. ahaha. i'm not going into details. but seriously. sometimes i feel like oil and water with them, and i'm sure i make them equally mad. and i wonder if i'll survive the two months in china with them... hmmm..

i don't know what's wrong with me these days u know :/ it's almost as if my brain is divided into two. one half is functioning like the joash that everyone sees. but the other half is terribly conflicted, disturbed, and well.. almost driven nuts. with what? well.. EVERYTHING. sooo annoying. i wish i could flush my brain and press reset. i think it comes with age... just too many things slowly accumulating inside the brain. i can't imagine when i'm 30 lorh. i think i need to stop thinking or something. like seriously. (yeah, i'm still thinking about it. oh the irony.)

what makes a best friend? common interests? a shared childhood? similar personalities? going through fire together? i don't know. i have friends that fall in each category, but not one that has all 4. or 3 for that matter. am i the only one that looks at other cliques and feel jealous of them while secretly feeling unsatisfied with my own group? maybe. or maybe i'm thinking too much. aiyaaah. i don't think this really matters right. the friends that i have, are the friends that God has blessed me with. sure, i'll never have the perfect friend because we are all human. as much as i want to be a perfect friend to some, i know i can never be as well. right? right...?

right(:

so i should just make the best of what i have! is this what fellowship is about sometimes? i mean, you love people despite their flaws. just as how God loved us despite our flaws. except that God's love is on a much greater scale. but.. maybe that's what it's like. hm. i'll have to keep thinking about that. (hur hur, thinking.)

hm. i'll just stop here for now(: i just wish the rain would stop by 3 so i can go swimming!!

OH YA, i can't go for the sundown marathon cos of my china trip. k lah, the china trip is worth the sacrifice. but i was sooooo looking forward to running the marathon with some people. (though i would have gotten trashed along with my ego. but anyway.) aiyo. now.. how how? no more motivation to run those 20+km distances. i'm also missing both special terms at SMU. i hope i won't suffer because i missed those terms.

OH YA. haha. i got into the LKCSP. yay. after about 10mins of euphoria, the stress started to settle in. ahaha. A- averages for 4 years. goodness. can die. God help me.. or else i'll just kicked out of the programme and keep my free laptop. ahaha. see, my poor blog is so un-updated. nvm. who cares.

ok, bye friends(:

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